So I'm home right now, and made a conclusion.

A lot of my friends came home from college last year and spent the summer where they left off the year before; the beach with friends, working a job, drinking at night, same old drama. And that's great, I respect the fact that they want to do that. But. I can't.

I don't know if it's being in the city, or the fact that I've moved on from so much that I left here, but I feel like if I come sit at home I'm going to lose all drive I've gained this past year at school. I can't come back and do a show on Long Island. It's not that I feel I'm above it talent wise or anything like that, but it's where I left off. I'm in such a different place ... how do you come back to something you've known for so long as such a different person, and expect to enjoy it the same way?

I'm auditioning for Straw Hats, but who knows what may come from that. A teacher from high school who is all sorts of wonderful is trying to set me up with her old summer stock theater in Maine which would be the most amazing summer I could ask for ... I've always wanted to go to Maine. But I have no idea if that's even a possibility, it's so up in the air. I could stay in Manhattan and attempt to get an internship. I could go to LA and see how I fare out there.

GAHHH. I just want Straw Hats to be over so I have some sort of idea as to what may or may not be coming my way. I want internships to fly into my hands. I want warm weather tomorrow and a million dollars in my bank account and a beautiful straight boy to pop up at the bar some night this week.

IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK?!?!
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First.

In middle school, blurty.com was the thing. Then LiveJournal in High School. Now that I'm in college, I decided to move on somewhere else.

I'm not sure why I made this blog. It's always awkward to start one .. what do you write about first? Is this going to be a daily recording of what I ate for lunch or an overview of my feelings, thoughts, emotions, ideals? I feel like I'm learning so much since I got to college-- about the world, about myself, about the people I have loved and have to come love.

I'm not giving this address to a lot of people for the sole fact that it's more for me than you. I have realized that I forgot how I felt during times of my life, and had no record to go back and view them. But, I'm really bad about doing things for myself, so that's why I decided to do it publicly; at least I'll feel like I'm giving something out there, and you can take what you want from it.

I guess that's all I'll say for now.
Love.