So I'm home right now, and made a conclusion.
A lot of my friends came home from college last year and spent the summer where they left off the year before; the beach with friends, working a job, drinking at night, same old drama. And that's great, I respect the fact that they want to do that. But. I can't.
I don't know if it's being in the city, or the fact that I've moved on from so much that I left here, but I feel like if I come sit at home I'm going to lose all drive I've gained this past year at school. I can't come back and do a show on Long Island. It's not that I feel I'm above it talent wise or anything like that, but it's where I left off. I'm in such a different place ... how do you come back to something you've known for so long as such a different person, and expect to enjoy it the same way?
I'm auditioning for Straw Hats, but who knows what may come from that. A teacher from high school who is all sorts of wonderful is trying to set me up with her old summer stock theater in Maine which would be the most amazing summer I could ask for ... I've always wanted to go to Maine. But I have no idea if that's even a possibility, it's so up in the air. I could stay in Manhattan and attempt to get an internship. I could go to LA and see how I fare out there.
GAHHH. I just want Straw Hats to be over so I have some sort of idea as to what may or may not be coming my way. I want internships to fly into my hands. I want warm weather tomorrow and a million dollars in my bank account and a beautiful straight boy to pop up at the bar some night this week.
IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK?!?!
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2 comments:
ugh summer. IIIIIIIIIII think that if straw hats doesnt work out you should apply to teach at a summer camp down here this summer. :) its pays well. and its only july. and its really professional. and i want to do it realy bad. and you could stay with me. that way you wouldnt be on long island. JUST SAYYYINNNG.
(plus then id get to see you every day in july, which would be all kinds of awesome.)
Well my dear, yeah it kinda is!! LOL. I TOTALLY agree with you tho about coming home after 1st year and doing as much as you have been doing (which has sounded like maybe even MORE than I did - LOL). I had a hard time just coming back to the hood and farting around with Ray Ray on the corner too! Okay, maybe not the best anology, but you speak Becca. I hope you get one of your cool things for the summer! P.S. - You never told me what you will be doing the Thurs, Fri, Sat or Sun of the weekend of May 3rd!!
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