His status: "I haven't been this happy in a long time."

I'm really, really happy for him. I wanted him to have something. I didn't want to hold him back. And that's what has happened.

But I think in my mind we were both gonna find someone. We were both gonna move on together, and still remain friends, and try to find that balance of where we can talk about what things without it getting weird. Where we could both be happy. But he found someone, and I haven't. Which is okay, I'm not in some huge rush. It's just a strange feeling.

I'm not sure what I'm trying to say. I guess I'm just in a weird spot, where I want to know everything, but at the same time I don't, because I still have this weird jealous, protective thing going on.

Things are changing, and I have to accept that I brought along this change. I guess I just wasn't expecting it to be so soon.

Sigh.