Sitting here in Ali's apartment, I have no ties or obligations holding me to anything. I have no need to be awake right now. But I am, unfortunately, and obviously I'm awake for a reason. 

It's been way too long since I've blogged but I guess the start of summer is better than never. Tali's currently showering and will be THRILLED when she opens up this page and looks at it. Teehee. She just walked by me and stuck her tongue out and she HAS NO CLUE. This one's for you, Tal.

So I opened Wedding Singer this weekend. And it was fantastic. I forgot how much I really missed the 8 shows a week type deal. Now granted it wasn't 8 shows, but it was 7 if you count tech and all that crazy stuff. Everyone was bitching yesterday about having a double, which is understandable. But GOD I loved it. I really and truly forgot how much of an outlet performing became for me last summer, and how much it fucked me up when I didn't have it anymore. I think it was partly why I was such a miserable wreck when I got back, although I only saw the main cause as the reason for a very long time. It's a nice reminder to have that I'm still doing this for a reason, and that I really really really love it. I wish I was doing it 13 hours a week again this summer, but I guess everyone needs a break. Hmph.

I'm taking into consideration Stephen Sondheim's song "Move On" from Sunday this summer in that "If you can know where you're going, you've already gone." I don't know where this summer will lead me, and for the first time I think I'm okay with that. 

Pause. It's 11:11. 

I think I'm finally trusting that life will take me the places I need to go without having to take myself there all the time. I have my goals though! Of course I need goals.

-I want to get my SAG card pretty much more than anything.

-I want to continue toning and get comp cards done.

-I want to spend amazing time with my girls who are such a necessary part of my life.

-I want to go to Oregon and see my family who I haven't seen in 7 years; this includes rolling down sand dunes, collecting sand dollars while blasting Jason Mraz in my ear and eating too much Ice Cream.

-I want to see Jason Mraz in concert. 

-I'd like to end the summer with more money than I started with, but I know that's fairly unrealistic.

See! Goals! They're good starting points, but don't have to go anywhere. This is good. And damn, if the weather stayed here with the cool breeze blowing through Ali's window and the smell of hash browns wafting up from Court Street, I'd be flyin high. I, unfortunately, know the full heat is comin. Sigh. 

I think I need Dunkin Blueberry coffee and a walk across the Brooklyn Bridge. Thank God for NYC.